It's going ok. I've been her before so am rereading DR and really had already GAL and done the 180 in the past. The main things I'm focusing on now is LRT because I think it's very likely we will be D by the end of the year, though I certainly want to do what I can to change that even if all I end up doing is satisfying myself that I did everything I could do.
But she seems definitely set on getting this done asap.
So there's very little communication. She has already sent me text messages where she's telling me about what not to leave laying around the house (paperwork related to the counseling I proposed a few weeks ago, my 'issues inventory', etc.) that the boys might see when they are over. I have responded with, "Thanks, I won't be sharing info with them they don't need or that might hurt them or you." If that continues from her side I'm thinking about just responding with 'OK' or perhaps not at all?
Other than that, I've got plenty of work and a few home projects I'm in the middle of so I'm just concentrating on them. Have a few outside interests/hobbies that I already put on hold for work, but work will keep me busy through this and give me plenty to focus my attention on.
What stinks is being back on the emotional rollercoaster. I've accepted the inevitability of this divorce in a way because she has had many years to respond more positively herself to the positive changes in me...and she has...but not to the degree she wants to stay.
My thinking is simply, "The best choice here is for us to commit to working through this in MC and perhaps IC. That's what I want. If she chooses differently I need to move on but be open to her if by some astronomical chance she has a change of heart."
It still hurts a lot, but I'm keeping it away from her and the boys.
I also did sign up for one DB phone coaching session which I plan on setting up on Monday.
