Thanks for posting lovely U I was beginning to worry....I was checking your thread daily last week, as it had been sometime. I don't say that as a manipulation to have you post more often, more about letting you know that I was indeed here checking in.
Your words sound honest, and while there is the obvious sadness and loss there in words, sentiment and feeling, I also feel a sense of hopefulness and willingness to move forward, to somewhere different. I hope to see this take more hold for you, and buffer you as you inch forward through this trial.
As for me I am mixed bag of emotion at present. You speak of your resentment. I am in full on hate at times. I feel the burden of it too. I want to be done with him the ex and the place he takes in my head and heart. Most of the time I know it's there but am numb to it. But it was the anniversary of BD on Wednesday. Did I say I hate him. Today anyway!
Sorry didn't mean to hijack and be so negative. Interesting week for me. Gosh sometimes wish we could catch up for a coffee and talking cycling and life and navel gaze about more trivial things.
Anyway U, I am sure that others will post far more helpful and inspiring comments. Just trust that I will keep stopping by to ask if you are ok.
