I have decided to be debt free (and WH) free in 3 months, this will enable me to be stable and able to be free to grow and develop.

This will leave me capable of being able to give more to those I love and let go completely of any resentment of WH abuse and the damage he has done.

I can choose to put this struggle to one side and enjoy the challenge of that which I do. I enjoy my work, my career. It is easy when I can concentrate on it.

It is possible to enjoy the challenge of bringing this back to steady, and see the improvement. This is something my higher power can take away the struggle and replace with joy of achievement.

I can change this if I want to, it isn't going to be a long term issue. There can be exciting success to come. I can free my life for health and love. I can have the PMA if I want to change my life from my physiology upwards.

The pain and distress can be my authenticity to offer to the world. Pain is life and it can be freeing if I chose to let it. I no longer wish to resist, this is the way it is. I believe in facing the pain and walking into it.

I have wallowed in misery and it is self indulgent. This is one of my challenges, the blame is stopping me moving forward as in reality it is of no relevance. It is necessary until this is reversed and my life becomes good. Without the struggle there will be more time for the gift of the giving of love and release. Time for aged pa, glam sis, fav cousin, clever nephew, orange wed friend, here, gammon and for health. Time to project rainbow strength.

This will be my story.

I need you guys to keep me in check and those 2x4s!

V

Last edited by Vanilla; 10/10/15 12:19 AM.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose.
V 64, WAW