A few developments has kept me from posting earlier today. Received a call last night from W, seems her mother has taken a turn for the worst. So I heard her, listened to her, she asked if I could stay over with the kids, which I did. No expectations. She was of course distraught, and worrying about financials in order to fly out to see her mother. It only felt right to offer to cover the flight being that she couldn't afford to and I couldn't live with the thought of her not being able to see her mom, as this might be her few chances to do so.
This morning I woke up made breakfast for the entire family, and proceeded to help my W get ready for her flight. I also provided her with my spare CC and made her an authorized user, for her to use it in case of emergency. During this ordeal I took a glance at her finances, and wow, what a disaster. No wonder she is feeling the strain, yet, I come to the house and she has a delivery for a new hat... not only that, but I see that she has been corresponding with one of her interests via email lately (I did not snoop, it came up on our PC at home when I when to check my email) I am not going to bring it up as this is not the time for any of that. What is happening right now, is bigger than us. Yet, it hurts a bit.
This is my current update in my sitch. I am beginning to feel a sense of detachment, not entirely but some.
Here is my PMA for today:
Quote of the day:
“You are one thing only. You are a Divine Being. An all-powerful Creator. You are a Deity in jeans and a t-shirt, and within you dwells the infinite wisdom of the ages and the sacred creative force of All that is, will be and ever was.”
- Anthon St. Maarten, Divine Living: The Essential Guide To Your True Destiny
*This video really put a few things into perspective for me*
I hope we are all finding ourselves a little stronger, a little wiser, and with a little bit more love today. Everyday, you take it 24 hours, 12 hours, 1 hour, 30 minutes, 15 minutes, 1 minute at a time.
God Bless.
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms
