Thank you so much, Mona.

It totally makes sense, but my fear is that since our relationship hasn't really worked since before we got married, he will have no reason to miss me. He's also so used to being gone from both me and our daughter, that it doesn't seem to matter much (our daughter yes, me not so much) I think we both felt relief a lot of times when he was gone anyways.
He has a lot of resentment towards me. He said that in time it will go away. I guess my only hope is to become the kind of person he would want to spend his life with.
He always wanted a big family, when I pressed him about that shortly after he BD'ed me, his only response was "well, at least we had one"
I just saw him. He looked so tired and told me it was because of work and money etc. I was trying to be friendly and helpful, not sure if that's the right approach?