Sotto I've been continuing my classes, working out and meetups with other moms. Occasional lunch/dinner with friends, but not too often due to budget issues. Sometimes I feel bad for kids to be absent at night but my IC also told me that it is ok as long as kids know I'll be back. I'm also enjoying cooking, this is what I loved before. I make D3's lunch once a week for her school and people compliment me for my little creation every week (I make it really cute like edible arts) which makes me feel good.
Ggrass, Thank you so much for your concern and I'm sorry you have been through the same before. Since the incident he seems to take it to heart and keeps his hands to hiimself. Physical separation for me leaving or him leaving is not possible at this moment for financial reasons. I know it's not ideal, but that is the reality. I/He would have left two months ago, but when you have two little toddlers, things get much more complexed. I'm really sorry if I sound like I don't take it seriously, that is not my intention. I do truely appreciate your concern.
mvgfwd, Thank you for your advise as always. As you say, I am not ready for thouse extreme measures yet to be honest. Anything I say would sound like another excuse, I know....
H started coming home earlier (compared to him coming home in the morning) and leaving later (if he is home for kids)since the incident and he came straight after work last night and stayed all night on the couch, which was the first time since BD. Of course there is no way for me to know exactly what kind of adjustment he is trying to make or his intetions. Either cutting down his alcohol, saving money, or getting more sleep is good for his mental and physical health. Good for my peace of mind for not worring about being late or all kinds of troubles he might get us in.
