As you are only beginning to realise, you are on a voyage of discovery that you didn't ask to be part of and may grow to see what in some small way a blessing, as it will illuminate a path towards self improvement and awareness.
You are probably experiencing every possible emotions, separately and at the same time, plus a degree of disorientation. Some of this will be due to the recent events in your life and some because of lack of sleep, how much are you actually getting? The timing of your posts suggest it is sporadic bouts at best...
Your temptation will be to think that your situation (sitch) is different to everyone else's, the good news and sadly it's not. There will be a handful, at least who will have experienced or are experiencing what you are right now.
The reason Cadet posts so many different links in his initial post on your thread is to give you some reading material to help you to come to terms with your sitch and enable you to piece together what you actually want and where you want to head. Take the time to read each one of the threads and become familiar with them as they will often be referred to by every one here as they are worth their weight in gold.
You seem to have a pretty solid idea at present of where things are heading, this may well change, or not, either way Divorce Busting (DB'ing) is there to help those who are left behind by their spouse (LBS) to rebuild themselves and make themselves better people in life and in their next relationship (R).
As you are doing already, keep on posting everything you feel as it will, in part, enable you to understand what has happened and why; one thing is for certain, there is no magic pill, it won't happen overnight, time is an important (if not the most important) component.
If you stick around, you'll make some great friendships and get insight that would not be possible without the anonymous nature of this forum.
I am looking forward to reading more about your sitch and, hopefully, along with the others, helping you to get to where you want to be.
Thank you Avanti for your very kind words. They truly made me feel better. I look forward to making new friends in here. Yes it is a struggle but one of my friends described it as well as a new journey. It is still hard to believe that WW became so distant, cold and mean towards the ends without any notice
