A new thread for Eye-Tie

[Ggrass]

That list of ten was my xh2 list of complaints against me.

Add crazee and mentally ill.

But his actions he assaulted my son, his step son. With no reason given and made me the bad guy in that.

If you read behivours that signify abuse he checked every box, word salad for nearly an hour that I bough hemeriod suppositories not cream for example.
Stalking places I posted on the Internet.
Keeping tabs via others on me at work.
Threats and a loaded guns in the bedroom and house..

His list I have now worked out pure protection on his part.

The how I view my xh2 is as a very very damaged man. I'm sad for him really sad.
Things won't be as he thinks given I see a pattern from his xw1 to me and see him re creating it with ow.

I waited quiet some time before heading out looking in the dating sense and didn't really look to hard.

What I see now and I suspect eye is the same, xh2 never put my needs first but the public show of doing so was important. This was early on about a year or so in. Even before that he told the L that server all trips he went on were break ups? Wtf?
Those trips he did tell of woman who travelled and met up with him a few times... So I suspect he always cheated or thought about it.

My needs and being first is awesome. Bf is very much good at making you feel like I matter, xh2 was always reverse in a subtle way.
That's an example ^ of some times how things can always just be a certain way in either good or bad way.

Xh2 was a very big game player, which I didn't really understand untill now when I look back. He pushed any boundaries very deliberately till things tipped his way. The whole on again off again he instigated it or forced your hand. If you refused to part take he just left.

He too would have to eat a huge humble pie to even think about db, it's contrary to everything he believes in. He simply doesn't believe people cannot be forced to do things. In his world no such thing as free will. His small mind would simply explode.
It would be a good thing for him to db, but he didn't see we needed counselling just me as I was broken. He would have to confront too many deamons and repair far to much.

It's unlikely, but given the sort of person I am, in a way I have made some personal in my head commitments to bf, which kind of negates any r. At this stage.
But being in the smitten stage yes, I do understand how they can just walk, not completely but I can see how you could be.

I do understand the drug type references used here. I now more than ever understand that intense high and that not wanting to look back. It's the major breech of trust while in the r, I think it could be different if the r was over and they moved on. Then came back together, the trust factor was broken.

The next time something walks past, mmmm would they jump ship? Would be always in my mind.