Need advice for a WW who left Part 4

[dwh15]

Been a week of ups and downs. Had a great time Tuesday night volunteer bartending. Even had a woman there hitting on me all night quite aggressively. I flirted along just out of fun, but actually backed off towards the end, since she was getting pretty serious about wanting to meet me after work, and I'm not even remotely ready for something like that. But it was flattering and I came home with a smile.

Otherwise, pretty quiet overall. Kids went to see mom for couple hours yesterday, first time in almost 2 weeks. Spent a grand total of 2.5 hours and back home. Was supposed to be 4 hours but guess the kids got bored, and sounds like she had something going on after they left anyway. OM switched to working 1st shift this week, so has been home every night and I suspect him and WW are constantly out doing something. From what I can tell, she seems in a great mood this week. Makes it hard for me, since I hate that the kids now have to deal with him when they go over, plus I just hate the thought of WW spending time with him at all, but I do my best to not think about it.

On top of that, WW sent a text today asking if we could reschedule a meeting with the school regarding S10 next week because she had "other things" going on. It's right in the middle of work day for OM, so no idea what that could mean, but I didn't ask her to clarify, and now it's kind of driving me nuts. I know I need to just forget about it, but sometimes I slide back and this one of those times. It was a challenge not asking her to clarify her plans. Trying to focus on me, kids, family and friends but appears I'm still on the emotional coaster to some extent.

Good news is I'm able to be fairly productive at work, and have nights out where I truly enjoy myself and don't think about WW or D at all, but then other times it all comes crashing in again. Hoping that time and distance allows me to keep detaching and reach a place where I can be happy more than a few hours at a time. But looking back, I'm still miles ahead of a few months ago, so guess it's still progress. Looking forward to the weekend to just relax and enjoy.