Finally asking for help: 2

[Avanti]

Solo15, no matter what is happening it is important to keep the DB'ing principles in mind. You see green shots forming and it must be very encouraging, tend them well by keeping your "head in the game" while not losing sight of what your ultimately want to achieve. .

There is no point in going back to the old R, that failed and you ended up here, make the new R stronger and better by being conscious of your actions and knowing what it takes to create a strong bond that this time never breaks. Without this, sadly there is every chance you will end up here again.

If you think you really are on the road to recovery it probably makes sense to check in with the guys on the piecing forum, they are far better equipped to help you than many here, myself included.