Asked for the D

[EMMess]

Good morning brother,

I know what you mean with struggling with the kids in the morning I am in the same situation when I have to drop them off; in mine tho, my wife does have to do the same as she doesn't really have anyone but me around.

I am praying for you my brother, it sounds like you are getting to a much better place. I hope I continue to read about the great things you are doing.

[ILYNOT]

Yesterday my fear, anxiety got the best of me, started snooping around but found nothing, felt wrong like I was stealing or something. Will not be doing that again, I truly must let go and continue praying.

Didn't sleep to well but slept enough.

Feeling a little better this morning, a new friend reached out to me, I don't have any friends so this was a nice surprise.

Its so hard for me to meet new people, I feel like people tend to judge and Im naturally shy so I cant just go out by myself, this is by far the hardest thing ever.

If I had any friends I think this would have gone much easier.

W has plenty, its almost like new people flock to her now that she is "single" drives me nuts.

Oh well, had to vent.

[ILYNOT]

Good morning brother,

I know what you mean with struggling with the kids in the morning I am in the same situation when I have to drop them off; in mine tho, my wife does have to do the same as she doesn't really have anyone but me around.

I am praying for you my brother, it sounds like you are getting to a much better place. I hope I continue to read about the great things you are doing.

Thank you Emmess, praying for you as well!

[EMMess]

Hey brother,

I am the least to judge the snooping, as I am so guilty of it, it isn't funny. Truth is that you already know that this hurts us a lot more than it hurts them. So stay strong my friend.

This sounds to me like a great opportunity for a goal. Leaving your comfort zone and introducing yourself to someone new when you go out, and later to one person a day... This will help with self-esteem and self-confidence, I am rooting for you my brother as always.

God Bless

[ILYNOT]

I am trying my best to meet new people, unfortunately I get discouraged because I let my thoughts consume me, too much energy is focused on W then ME..

OK, NEW GOAL, meet new people, get out of my comfort zone!

[ILYNOT]

So got home yesterday and got a letter from L

W has filed, just waiting to get served, I knew it was coming, felt horrible reading the letter though.

I've been praying for her heart to turn around and change her mind but I guess GOD has better plans for me, I really did try to save my marriage, my kids know it, my family knows it, W moms knows it, W knows it.

Feeling detached but in awe, just going through the whole court system to me is very evil. Specially when its someone you love, the mother of your kids, so many memories down the drain in a matter of months.

Please pray with me for this whole process to go smoothly, I need my kids.

[Sotto]

Hi ILYNOT, I'm sorry to hear that. Even when we know it is a possibility, it still isn't nice to get the D papers. I noticed you are on the exact same timelines as me - BD 7.14 and my H filed last week.

What I would say is, your M isn't over yet and your R may not be over even if your M does end. Ultimately, it is up to you whether you choose to leave the door open a tiny bit.

My approach with the D and finances is just all business. I don't delay and I just set time aside and deal with things. I have no contact with H unless he gets in touch.

I hope things go smoothly for you my friend & take care..

[ILYNOT]

Sotto, thank you for stopping by, thank you for the encouragement, it really is needed right now.

Yes BD 7/14 filed 9/15 just like ur sitch.

I know you mention its all business but things can get very ugly in the court system which Ive never liked in the first place.

I will check in on your sitch, thank you!

Ephesians 6:11: "Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes"

[ILYNOT]

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Saw W yesterday 9/21/15 , she said "hi" while walking right passed me, I said "hey"..

Very strange feeling, cause that's someone you have spent half of your life with and now we are passing by each other like strangers.

quote] Just went back to the day she filed for D, I just cant beilive that she passed by me and said HI so calmly smiling, the day before she had filed... Shocks me.

[ILYNOT]

Question, now that she filed, I felt sad, angry, shocked..

We do exchange tomorrow, how do I deal with W?

Cordial? Talkative? As if? Do I even mention it? Don't even go outside?