Just let the ow win. And I'll just move on. This whole trip he's planned for her has really affected me. I don't think I can ever forgive him for doing this.. I'll never be able to trust him. Never! I finally told my mom the truth last night about him having another person on the side. I just cried. She cried. She's really hurting too. We never saw this coming from him. I was blindsided. But I'll just keep doing me. No calling, texting. I was planning on telling him to move out last night, he never came home. He couldn't wait to go to his wifey... that's all Azzork. I'm done with this. All of it. I need to let him go. I need to let be a reality that he's not coming back. This is the only way I'll get better. Is it fair I cry myself to sleep every god given day? When he's wining and dining her. No! I deserve to be happy too. I have a lot of love to give and i am lovable. But I just can't fight for him anymore. So congrats to him and new gf.
O -
You know in cartoons when theres a couple characters fighting, and the big dust cloud comes up and you see all the limbs and stuff, and then the cloud clears, and theres just one of the characters left, and theyre all twisted up and the other one is just standing to the side watching? That reminds me of you. Youre doing all of this effort and all of this fighting, but you are just fighting with yourself.
Let him go. Let him and her "win". Theres nothing you can do about it anyway. Take your focus and put it squarely on you. Dont worry about what wll happen months from now. Worry about today. And tomorrow. Build yourself back up. Become happy, self-confident, self-aware, empathetic. Who knows what will come of their relationship, but the odds are stacked against it. Someday, he may realize his mistake; who knows where youll be at that point.
You can do it, O. Let today be the first day of the rest of your life.
