Elly, I think that through this entire struggle...through all the years the need for an understanding, comforting and loving hug that went unfulfilled was the hardest thing I've dealt with. We went 2 years without that. Instead she either feigned a hug or pulled away...not at all worth it.
Where I am going with this is that I get your pain. Keep sharing those hugs with your little one.
I'm not sure if you attend church or not (sadly I do not), but maybe someone there could help with an ear for you to speak with ans a hug for comfort.
