This separated and detached is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, bar none. I really want to tell her how I feel and hold her and kiss her, but this is just crazy.
It just seemed like she flipped in her thoughts/feelings since last weeks session in which she gave us hope. In last nights session, she seemed as if she didn't really want to agree to the timeline our MC suggested, and it seemed as if she was also hesitant to agree to remain committed and not see other people, but at least she did. Take it I face value, I guess. She kept saying how she didn't know how we could truly be separated when she was going to be at her new base and come home on weekends to see the kids. I really don't know what to make of it, except I guess to chalk it up to her confusion. The MC really pressed and kept telling her that if she didn't agree to speak up. Guess we will see...
So I am still practicing the LRTs, detachment, etc. this is by far the hardest thing I have ever done.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
