WAS or what (2)

[roist]

Have a lot of stress and crap going on at the moment not counting the M situation.
I'm taking steps to meet these issues head on and hope to find a solution.IIt is at times like this when you share with your partner and have their support, that you know things will be OK. But I am really feeling alone. This must be how most WAS feel . It is not good. I understand why someone would walk away.

To feel so alone when together is not a way to live.

It saddens me to feel so low at the moment.I was really making good progress. I am meeting most goals and I am giving W more and more space. I don't hold it against my W but it reminds me of how I felt when my dad was dying.

Anyway I will get through this crap. I will continue my path and really work on me. In DR one woman stated she had 4 options
1 divorce
2 separate
3 stay and be miserable
4 stay and work on self.
I chose like the woman, option 4. It worked out for her but took a long time. I was stressed but not working on R during my depression.Now I have been working hard for almost a year. I don't know how long I will find the strength to continue. I will work on me and my finances and when both are better I'll see where we are at.

I only have here to express all this. In this country I only have her family.
MMine are far away and have own issues that I don't want to stress them as they can't help me . My brother is there for me though when needed. Here my friends know her friends and others are not close enough to go deep.

So need hugs and support please.