Six to Nine

[asitis]

I'm not sure what you are hoping to accomplish by this letter. If it is to convince her you area better man, it likely won't work, at least at this time. If it is to clear your conscience, it may, but I don't see it improving your R. If it is heal the wounds you caused, I don't think this will do it, again at least not now.

I don't think she is ready to hear this for what it is. I think she'll see it as an attempt to manipulate or pursue, when she's told you not to. It's not that the letter or the sentiments behind them are wrong or bad. It is that she is not in a place where she is going to hear them and see them for what they are. It is one thing to want to express yourself, and another thing to do it well. Doing it well requires considering the state of the intended audience. If you get to the friendship or even piecing stage, this will be very effective. Now, I don't see it being so.

I'd stick it back in the drawer and let it age some more. It's not like it needs to be sent now. It may make you feel better to give it, but is your purpose to feel better or treat the person you still clearly love in a way that feels loving to her. I'd put my needs behind that end any day. Some day, if things truly are finished for you, you can always trot it out and give it to her, even if she won't received it any better. It just won't jeopardize your DBing then.