Yeah, Lee, the email needed a response, though simple and brief. H is helping out with web site and giving good advice. I appreciate what he is doing.
SS, not sure where we find them. Or if I am ready for that either. Well, actually I know that I'm not. I'm sticking with my friends and myself for a while.
The sign is on the back for sure, though! It's really kind of amazing... and kind of fun sometimes.
I am feeling good about where I am at, and I think if I knew that OW was out of the picture, I would approach all of this a bit differently right now.
But I think that if H decides to keep that person in his life, he is showing me some clear messages about who he is and what he stands for, and I don't mean that judgmentally. I mean I'm not willing to pretend it's OK as I would not do that with any friend.
So I guess for now, that is where I am at. I'm focusing on me and if H wants to be in my life, he can show me OW is gone and show me his behavior and words can be trusted again. I'm willing to take leaps of faith because I love him, but if H is not willing to do his parts, I don't think I'm interested in having *any* kind of R with him given all that has occurred.
I'm certainly going to be friendly when I hear from him and continue to present my best self and hope that things turn the corner. I believe that is possible. But I think I've left the rope in the other room.
My H's horoscope said last weekend that H is regretting what he threw away to get where he is now, but that this change doesn't have to be permanent. I need not to read these things!
