What an inspiring post, Wonder!!! (((((WONDER))))) I am a little down tonightt after signing taxes and your post just lifted me!!!

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And yes, I do have to CONSIDER that H may be choosing not to love me

I think this is definitely the case with my H. I like to believe that if he LET himself he could/would love me again. I think that is why he is so afraid to let his guard down too much with me....It's like we are KRYPTONITE!!!!!!!!!

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Interesting how I can feel so full of optimism, for me and for my future, even when (like today) I get all teary in the pharmacy just because I hear "the song".

Same here~ I guess we have to expect to still feel the pain every once in a while or we wouldn't be human!I am so glad to have soooo many more good times than bad at this point!

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Recovering. Moving forward. Clicking my heels together and really *knowing* there is no place like home. I guess that is where I am today. Would be nicer to share that, but right now it is all mine

Now there is a mantra!!! You go girl!!!!!!!!

Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)