Lovely Azure, thanks for (as usual!) understanding just how I'm feeling and giving me the vote of confidence. Will you have time to visit when you head this way?
SS is back from sunny FLA!! I like your mantra and am going to adopt it for my own. I did a really good "stop sign" the other night and thought of you! My stop sign inspiration girl.
Betsey, I'll defend you anyday! My H was in a fog for a good long while... it was hard to miss. But yes, at some point they make choices... and to love your S is a choice.
I had to make the choice myself. There was a point at which I thought those feelings would never come back... yet when I started healing and decided to love to him, they did. And yes, I do have to CONSIDER that H may be choosing not to love me (personally, I might say that's not the best choice available, LOL) yet from our conversations, I suspect that he would frame it more as a feeling than a choice.
I could be wrong about that, though. Wouldn't be the first time...
BRIDGET, how nice to have you stop by... I read your thread often and think, wow, that girl has it so together. Your post made me all teary and warm at the same time.
Dropping the emotional attachment is what helped me grow too... though I've been guilty of picking it back up off the ground a few times here and there... and I harbor sneaking hopes that letting go is doing the same kind of growth magic on my H.
But yeah, things are mostly good in my corner of the world. I have so much to be thankful for every single day. And I love so much about my life. It's not perfect, but it's what I make it every day.
Like you say, Bridget, I am focusing on my own magic and dreams... and being sure to give back whenever I can.
I hope H chooses to stumble back in his way. I will CONSIDER that.
Interesting how I can feel so full of optimism, for me and for my future, even when (like today) I get all teary in the pharmacy just because I hear "the song". My intuition is telling me a lot of good things.
Recovering. Moving forward. Clicking my heels together and really *knowing* there is no place like home. I guess that is where I am today. Would be nicer to share that, but right now it is all mine.
