I’ve been GALing a lot lately. Last weekend I did not come home on Saturday night and I think that ruined WW late evening plans. I just didn’t want to know if she came home or not so I chose to stay somewhere else. The following morning she sent a long rude massage demanding:
1)I move out
2) also demanding I not attend a wedding that her cousin personally invited me to( He know about this sitch, but still asked me to come).
3) demanded more money for the bills we were paying jointly (she is not happy with the 50/50 rule I established. (She also told me I need to understand our relationship is over!)
I came home hours later and did not even acknowledge the message and she never brought it up. I never texted her or anything. She was very cordial with me when I came home and even asked if I we could eat dinner together. The rest of this week she has been extra nice with me, buying me food and asking me about work etc...
I am starting to feel like I am detaching more and more each day. I use to wake up every morning and those first 5 seconds were the best because I didn’t realize my sitch until I realized I was not sleeping next to my W.
I think I’m getting exhausted by the amount of mental energy I am putting in to save my M. I still want to, I just think I’ve been thinking about way too much. I may be reaching that point where I’m going to just let it go and let faith do its thing.
Me - 34 W - 34 T- 4 M- 2 No Kids BD - 4/18/15 ILYBNILWY EA/possible PA 06/20/15 Seperated 09/28/15
