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[mahhhty]

Hey Mahhhty, I haven't been around here much either, read some posts a few times a week but haven't been posting.

I feel like you are still holding on to that last thread (this is totally a do as I say, not as I do btw :)). I think where you are right now in your R it is time for you to "drop the rope" completely. Maybe the letter you are composing will help you do that. I know my coach did give me some advice (prior to where we are now) on writing a letter and actually sending it. I think her disease has pulled you back in a little, which is understandable, but remember it is not your place to fix/help her. Try not to read too much in to her contact or lack there of, or anything else she does. You have no idea what is going on in her head.

I've said this before but you are a great dad & a great person. Your kids a lucky to have you in your life (and vice versa) and any woman you choose to have a R with in the future will be very lucky as well, including your X.

Are you planning on posting a draft of your letter before you send it?

Honestly, I have no idea if I am still holding onto a thread or not. I don't start conversations. I don't contact or confront her. I am not involved with her unless it is about the kids. I am a nice guy. Unfortunately.

I am fully aware that she needs to live her life, and live with the decisions she has made. I'm trying not to interfere with that.

My kids..... I am the lucky one. If not for them. I would be in a different place. They are the best of me, and I am truly grateful for them.

Thanks Lost!!! I've missed our back and forth's the last couple months.

I'm going to post the letter soon-ish.