Lonely Hearts Club

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Thanks PigPen and Rouky. Before starting the medication I was experiencing waves of emotion that were extreme in every direction. Extreme joy, extreme sorrow etc. etc. Now I am just incredibly sad. Maybe I am in the depression stage of grief. I just didn't know I could feel this way. I am also having a hard time thinking about the future. I know it will be better than ever before but I am just so weighted down with everything right now that I cannot go there. My sisters who I have leaned on through this have challenges of their own and I am reluctant to call on them right now. I do think often of the two of you and the others who have reached out to me here.

I feel that all this shall pass and I know that all of you have dealt with and are dealing with the same feelings. I'm sorry that you all have to go through this. The people in our lives are very cruel and the way that we have fought for our families is indeed heroic. May God give us the strength to continue to rebuild our lives and bring us healing.