[BrightFuture]

Job, thanks for your post. You are always here for me.

Job, I think I didn’t explain it well enough about potential ow. I’m curious what happened there, so they are not friends on FB anymore. Did she de-friend him or he did it? And what kind of circumstances could lead to this? Knowing H, I think that it had to be a major fall out on her part for him to de-friend her. So, I’m thinking it must be her initiative. Maybe he got too obnoxious in pursuing her, LOL. I don’t see her as a fXXk buddy, I think she too nice and decent for that. It might be that H wanted her as a fXXk buddy (or at least coming out like that, even if the intentions were more than that), and she got offended. This is probably the most likely scenario.

About my son… Yes, I have pretty strong feelings that my son was looking for my validation. He is his GF came for dinner tonight, but I didn’t talk to him about H, because his GF was here. I will ask him to stop by in a couple of days, before they go to the vacation home and I can bring the subject then. I even have an excuse why he needs to stop by.

Yesterday I’ve got a package for H, from his doctor. Some of you probably remember my posts about these packages with Viagra medication from last year. I haven’t received the packages for some time. I think H got them mailed to other addresses, either the state he was working at or PO box in the border town, so he could pick them up while he stayed at the vacation home last winter.

Anyway, whatever the reason was for this package to arrive at my house this time, I don’t know. I think he still has my address in his VA file. So, when I got the package I laughed (sarcastically, LOL), thinking that H got his V medication delivered to my address again. So, I picked inside the package (there is little hole on the side) and read the medication name on the bottle. It is antidepressant. Yes, I could not believe my eyes … H, who criticized his sister and other people taking antidepressants and saying that he would never do that, is taking the medication for depression.

I guess life is not as fun and full of excitement as H hoped it would be. I guess the drinking was not enough to fix the issues. He is now on meds. OMG! Aside from sarcasm, I feel so sad and sorry for him.

These two things (meds and H’s reaching out to my son) made me think… I can almost predict what kind of replies I will get after posting this… But… I’m going to ask anyway… Especially that my sitch has been “dead” for some time and now I have a little bit of "development" (at least I think I do)… Here it goes… Is H transitioning into another phase of MLC? Is he now experiencing some depression? I don’t see any withdrawal signs, but I don’t have much knowledge about what’s going on with him. Plus, he would be the one to mask his depression and try to deal with it by partying more and harder… And inviting my son for this weekend… Are these the first signs of reconnection with family and kids, etc.?

Don’t get me wrong. I ‘m not getting my hopes up. Or, maybe I do… The hopes that H is finally moving into something else… That he is not going to be stuck in a replay phase forever… I might not be there when and if he comes out of his MLC, but it would be sad to see him being miserable for the rest of his life. I guess I’m in a compassionate mood today .

Well, this was meant to be a short update...