I read so many stories on here and see all the pain and turmoil we are all going thru and can’t stop but wonder (wish) that maybe my situation has some hope. I have been in the current state of this situation for a year now and I feel fortunate in comparison to others (maybe false hope I don’t know). I still live with my wife we get along well sleep in the same bed no talk of divorce or selling the house or anything like that. The issue is she does not want a relationship or at least the one we had. Maybe she is willing to sacrifice these years of her life for the sake of the children and when they are older then it will be the physical separation and all will be over.
Maybe she is DBing me, sometimes I wonder how it all seems so earily similar to what I read. I had all or a lot of the traits of a WAS but it seems the table turned and she became one. I was out getting a life for the 5-10 years leading up to the BD. Spending hours every sat & sun and at least 2-3 other days of the week pursuing my stuff while she was at home with the kids and working. I just think I was so stupid when I look back on how I could have easily taken a different path and had everything now.
I am easily irritated I go quite if I don’t get my way I don’t finish what I’ve started I didn’t spend enough time with my kids I didn’t spend enough time with my wife
I want to find a way back but am worried this will just be another thing I don’t finish. Right now I need to do something about the anxiety as it is affecting me in ways that if it I don’t get it under control soon there will be no path back.
Last edited by Merckx; 10/06/1506:08 PM. Reason: edited
