Time to let go.....How? (2)

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man, i ma having one of those really bad days today. She went to real estate office and was filling out paperwork thi morning.

After our conversations yesterday about the separation agreement and everything i felt like i needed to say a few things to her. I have really been trying to let god take over things in my life and felt i needed to make good with her, at least in my own mind. I called her and let her know that although i do not feel that we are at this point as all my fault that i have been thinking about how she must have felt for so long to get her to this point. I told her i was sorry for playing a part in that and it really bothers me knowing she must have hurt for so long. I also told her that moving forward i am going to be as fair as i can and not be petty. I will make sure that me providing for the kids is not affected and if i am able to help more for her i would because i want to kow she is able to provide for them as much as possible also.

Should i have done this? I dont know, but at the time i felt i had to. I wanted to show unconditional love without trying to pursue her. I dont know what i accomplished, but i did feel a little better. She told me thank you and it really means a lot to her. there was no counter apology for anything but i wasnt really looking for one.

i am trying to figure out how to get positive today.