Ghost,
I am seeing too much of myself in you.
May I be blunt?
You are getting some really great advice from people who are spot on. The problem is you are not listening to any of it. You are reading it and as you read it you are building up a response and excuse.
95% of this is a battle in your head and the more you keep it there the more painful this will be.
Force yourself to GAL the more you do, the more your mind will become free and no it is not easy or fast.
This is hard stuff.
The trick is to do what your being asked to do without expectations, you will not see changes happen, but they will.

Last edited by jp787; 10/06/15 02:15 PM.
M46,W41
D16,D18
M22,T25
BD 11/12
W moved out 01/13
Piecing 10/13
Divorced 01/15
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can."
UrWorthy