So every time i go out with friends in order to stay busy i always think to myself, if she was here she would be having fun, if she was here she would have said this. I am so attached to her and i miss her so much. Why did i let her down? Why wasnt i there emotionally for her? Why was a i so dumb. Why didnt i ever sit down in the couch and just asked her how she was feeling or how her days was. I am the only one to blame here. She tried everything with me , couples retreat, counseling, church and i didnt ever take her serious. Why was i so stupid? Now she doesnt want nothing to do with me because it's too late.
