Maybell, I just updated my thread. It's at the top now, by the time you check back, it may be waaay back there. I don't get a lot of traffic these days, I will probably make my next thread here.
Anyway, so sorry about the job, but it really does seem like you'll be better off somewhere else. I hope that opportunity comes up quickly, my job search has taken longer than I thought it would and it's a little stressful. Good luck to you.
I owe so many people visits t their threads (and I read yours, Sunny, though I didn't reply yet...) so I'm sorry for being so self-absorbed. But I don't have the kids this weekend and I've been reflecting a lot on my employment his year, where I went wrong and what I couldn't avoid. It is finally hitting me how many enormous trials I went through in the last four years, how alone I've been and how much I've grown. I have been kind of weepy, but a cleansing weepy. If any of my friends or kids went through what this year has been for me I would be appalled.
I hope I'm finally in a place where I'm gaining perspective on the last year, rather than just powering through it. I'd like to move past it. It was a demanding year. I want to start liking outwards again.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
I think I am depressed. I just want to cry and cry. But I also feel impatient at that idea. I'm feeling burnt out and having trouble planning my next steps. I don't know if I have it in me right now. I'm tired and sad and the next step is not visible to me. This was all too much all in a row.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
Hi ((((Maybell)))) . You probably ARE depressed, and you have a lot of circumstances that would get anyone down. You need to take care of yourself, step one, and let the next steps fall into place. Can you take an antidepressant, if you're not already? They saved me, I'm telling you. They can get you through a difficult time and then you can stop them if you want to. Also see if you can make yourself work out or even take a brisk walk. Some ideas may take form in your mind while you do that, plus you'll get the anti-depressant effect of exercise. Also, for me, sometimes when everything seems like cr*p I can feel a little better by just having faith that there will be a time, a week from now or a month or a year, when this day won't looks as bad as I thought it was in the moment. Emotions sometimes pile onto an already difficult situation. Have faith that you can handle this and just wait till some time goes by and your emotions will change.
But still (((hugs))). Sorry that you feel so overwhelmed today.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
. I will try to update tomorrow.
I don't get a lot of traffic these days, I will probably make my next thread here.
consider that a blown kiss as well. You have come sooooo far.