I'm feeling so anxious about it. She said as she was firing me, "It sounds like you've got this practically buttoned up, so I guess I'm not throwing you under the bus *too* badly." She said that my looking around had destroyed her trust in me, but when I said "I think that goes both ways" she didn't acknowledge that I had even said anything, let alone investigate that I had lost my trust in her from all the brow-beating I had taken. The whole thing was just about her being upset that I had been looking -- even though she often said demeaning and inappropriate things to me about being overeducated, also about stay at home moms, etc. The fact that I can make a bundle more money working elsewhere compared to what she was paying me apparently also isn't terribly relevant.
Oh, and she spent some time complaining about how she works weekends, evenings, etc. Which has WHAT to do with me, considering she wasn't even really filling my daytime hours and gave me no opportunity to flex? She took a week off from work every month for the first seven months I worked there. So yeah, I'm guessing weekends and evenings are going to happen.
It was a horrible, toxic experience, especially at the end, but I was willing to stick it out to get to a better place. If she had even suggested that she had a plan for how I could move out of the receptionist desk I might have stuck around to see how it would play out. But I felt like I'd never get out of that position and it stunk to know I had passed tests and classes as hard as hers, that I understood WAY more of what she was doing than she ever gave me credit for, and yet somehow she didn't think I was good enough to move into the empty space (even partway) left by my immediate supervisor who quit the week before. Although I was doing most of that work after the supervisor left -- and the owner didn't even realize I was because "she's a hands-off kind of boss."
I'm feeling anxious and worried about finding employment now. I'm sure I'll be OK but I don't feel right not working anymore.
I know I'm going to be awesome. I'd just like to know WHEN!!!
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
