For Sandi, I have read and know that GAL is important and something I need to do but it is also where I am most troubled. Before the BD I had too much going on, work, commute, house upkeep kids so much so that I needed an outlet. I found it in sports and in the beginning it wasn’t too bad but over the past 10 yrs it progressed into an addiction where I needed it to cope with all the other stresses in life. Little did I realize it was really the sport taking so much of my time that was upping the stress in the other parts of my life. I couldn’t give it up because I felt I needed to get away.
Now when I try to GAL all I think of is the time I spent away and how this is more of the same.
Some things I have done Went back to school. It will take some time but in about a year and a half I should have my skills back up to where they need to be that I can get a job closer to home or be in a position to work from home. During class is great it occupies my time and mind and find it very enjoyable. Homework on the other hand is hard as trying to find time away to get it done while still getting things done around the house. Also find that I do not stay focused and will start to wander and wish that I had my old life back.
Spend more time with my kids especially the youngest.
Working out in the gym. Running when I can keep from injuring myself. Can’t quite get the start slow concept down.
Still one of the hardest things for me is the commute. At over an hour each way it is just too much alone time and my mind wanders. It is probably the biggest change I need to make but is at least a year or more off before that can happen.
