Need advice for a WW who left Part 4

[dwh15]

Volunteered at my church this morning between 9am-1pm, and kept very busy. I'm on the "welcome team" so get to greet everyone at the door as they come in. It's a great way to meet people and strike up conversations. Saw a couple of old friends, and spent a lot of time talking to some new ones. Really enjoying the chance to meet new people in this environment.

Other than that, spent some time going through S8's clothes today and putting aside things that no longer fit to make room for new clothes. Of course, the memories come flooding in as I see a certain shirt and recall a time he wore it, and we were all together as a family. After 3 hours, I got through the entire dresser, and made plenty of room. It was painful but productive. Now have to do the same for S10 sometime this week - not looking forward to it after today.

Took S18 shopping for couple of hours, then home to make dinner, get everyone showers to get ready for school tomorrow, and prepare for tomorrow to start the work and school week all over. It really is exhausting sometimes being a single parent. Must have done 8 loads of laundry just this weekend trying to get caught up. The good news is I'm settling into a routine and becoming very efficient with my time. I've got the multi-tasking down cold and often juggle 3 or 4 tasks at once. Sometimes I get mad that this is my life now, but I usually bounce out of it after a few minutes and focus on what needs to be done. I had the usual ups and downs today, but overall didn't spent a lot of time focused on WW or my pending D. There's so much to do, and as long as I concentrate on the task at hand, I am fine.

I do feel myself detaching a little more every day, and think if I can maintain some distance from WW for a few more months (no more 3-hour meetings), I will finally get there. I'm still sad and upset when I do think of the sitch, but find that it's popping into my head much less frequently than before. What's killing me now is my 2 youngest seem to really be missing mom, and are acting a little depressed about it. WW has only seen them twice in 10 days, and it's taking a toll. I told S8 tonight that we can call mom tomorrow, as she isn't scheduled to see them again until Wednesday. I need to get the therapy going, as I'm getting really worried about the impact this is having on all my kids. I've been focused on me for so long that it's been hard to worry about them, but as I get better, my focus is shifting much more to my boys now. And it's another level of pain that we all have to deal with. The fallout from these situations is amazing. Anyway, off to bed to get some rest before starting the new week.