Last night was rough for me. We usually took a weekend trip to celebrate our anniversary and I think it is starting to get to me.
I spent some time with H sister and mom yesterday. H seems to be acting nasty to everyone he knows from his former life before the store. I am not sure how he is acting with people from the store and his new friends there.
He apparently told his mom that during our last discussion over a month ago, he was trying to be amicable and I was just nasty to him. He told her I said he was worth nothing without me. It is amazing how he can twist that conversation so much.
During that conversation, he started it off by saying after he had been away from me for a month that he was happier than he had been for three years - we've only been married for 4 now. So basically he told me he had been unhappy for most of our marriage and now that he is away from me he is so happy. Then he proceeded to tell me that when he bought the engagement ring, he felt he had 2 choices, to dump me or to marry me. How is that being amicable? Then at the end of the conversation I asked him if he regretted marrying me. He said no, I enjoyed all of our experiences. I interrupted him and said "and the store?" He then stormed out. Now he is twisting that and saying I told him he was worth nothing? At least his family doesn't believe that I told him that.
He is making me out to be this horrible person. He is the one that left out of the blue without even trying. Now he is making me seem like this evil person. I know he is just trying to justify leaving that way. He may also believe it, who knows?
I guess hearing how he is portraying me, makes me realize he is not coming back anytime soon, if ever. That makes me sad. It also makes me sad that he can think such bad things about me, especially when none of it is true.
Sorry for the rant! I know things will get better and I don't want him back the way he is being right not. Sometimes, it is just hard to convince my heart.
