HI V Sorry it took so long for me to get back to you. I had a rough day Thursday with IC. I focused on my R with my Father and how hard it is for me to accept who he is now. I cried the entire time. Talk about emotional flooding. I cried most of the day I felt resentment, sadness, hurt and much much more. Today (friday) I worked, went shopping, moved most of my stuff from the camper to the house. Its getting cold enough here its time to head inside.
I did attend my second Al-Anon meeting on Thursday also. It was nice to be able to share those feelings I felt towards Ex and Father with people who understand. I will go again this coming week. I think I am starting to enjoy it.
As for the "family" sitch. Yes V I understand what you are saying. I understand all of the risks in this sitch. I can not speak for everyone in my culture but I grew up knowing family did not have to be blood.
Tomorrow I am riding with Ex, his brother, and parents down to one of his cousins birthday parties. My plan is to dress nice make up on smelling good and enjoy myself. Act as If I am doing perfectly fine and happy as a clam. New clothes nice shoes. and PMA. D will not be going as she is with her dad. I am feeling so much better and getting so much done. I feel like I am busy all the time and I am ok with that. I do think this friday D and I will have a stay at home night and do games or movie and popcorn. Just us. We have been on the go constantly. WEdnesday I will be making an extra payment on some of my debt as that is one of my long term goals to get my credit card and debt paid down. I will also be working towards saving money to move as I will need everything new due to leaving everything there. Which is fine It will be a fresh start. I have thought about Ex a lot today but I know it will get easier. I am feeling emotionally lighter every day.
