Where do I go from here, pt. 3

[beckyb]

Today I'm feeling so conflicted and confused. I am GAL, moving forward, not obsessing over H 24/7. (i do still think about this stich a lot but not like I used to). I don't contact H and only respond as necessary if he contacts me. All that has gotten me are two text accusing me of delaying the divorce in hopes that he will change his mind, assurances that our marriage is completely over and his apologies for hurting me. I am not dragging my feet. As a matter of fact, after said texts I sent him my settlement proposal. No response in 2 weeks. He is doing nothing. The next step would be for my attorney to officially send the proposal to his attorney, a step I don't feel comfortable with just yet.

H has been such a jerk and sometimes I just want to get the D done so I don't have to see him anymore or his junk anymore. I can sell this house and move somewhere new. My friends/family think I need to just get it done.

If I make moves to push a D settlement won't that show H once and for all I am moving on?

On the other hand I still hold out hope. There have been a few small positive signs along the way. He is maintaining a small connection, even though it's probably his Plan B

On yet another had, H has stated he wants to marry OW because she is very ill. How is he ever going to leave the sitch?

Ugh. I hate this. Some days I'm content to wait it out. Today is not that day.

BTW, I'm not a patient person. This is definitely a test for me. I sure hope it's building character.

Thanks for listening.