So WW ended up catching a nasty flu bug the day after our custody hearing and has had to miss both Wed and Fri with the kids. I spoke to her on the phone and could tell she sounded miserable. I like to think of it as a nice big karma bus, but however you look at it, not a fun week for her. She got killed in the hearing, then days on end of feeling like warmed over poo. Not a fun time.
I, on the other hand, went out to a bar last night with a new single guy friend, and had a great time. He's recently widowed for a few months, and still hurting, but overall just a fun guy to be around. We spent some time talking about each of our situations, but also took some time to have fun. Even got hit on by a couple of women. I'm not looking for a relationship, but it's a huge confidence booster to realize that women still find you attractive.
So I told him we have to make that a regular thing. I'm starting to really believe that I'm going to be just fine, and shouldn't have any trouble dating when I'm ready. In fact, I'm even looking forward to it. Been a long time since I got to experience the thrill of getting to know a new woman. And I don't think I spent more than a few minutes the entire night thinking about WW. I was focused on the moment and really enjoying just being out. Finally, I'm starting to see a little light at the end of this long dark tunnel
Me 47 W 42 T 24 yrs M 18 yrs W living with OM BD1: 3/7/2015 (A with OM#1) BD2: 4/11/2015 (A with OM#2, W moves out) WW filed for D, papers received 9/18/2015. Meeting to determine child custody 9/29/2015.