Journaling:


The other day my WW accidentally sent me a text meant for the OM. It stung a little. It was nothing sexual or flirty. She came home a we were discussing our Dog (he is like our son). Not sure if the dog senses the problems we've been having, but he has been acting out, peeing on the carpet, chewing furniture, etc...,

We were having a normal relaxed conversation about what could be happening to him when she went into the other room. 4 minutes later I received a text from her talking about me. It was crazy, she transformed our normal calm conversation into something completely different.

She exaggerated our dog situation and made it look like I was harming our dog on purpose to punish her. It hurt me. I went to talk to her to understand why she would paint me to be so evil. She knows I spoil the dog like no other and I would never do such a thing. She began crying apologized for the wrong text and blamed me for being more cold a distant so she didn't know who I was becoming.

I told her I was not her enemy and she should know that. I would never harm her. I asked to not talk [censored] about me to the OM, she said she doesn’t, only praises me to other people etc...

I am amazed at the transformation of my beloved W. She was so kind and loving, supportive. Now she's actively exaggerating things to make me look more negative and seeking counsel from the OM. This is crazy. I must admit I miss it. These long conversations she is having with OM are what we use to do.

I regret taking for granted these simple unimportant conversations about daily life, because now I don't have them anymore. She is my BFF. Now we only communicate about bills and the dog. Those few times we actual start talking about life are great, it reminds me of the old times.

I've always treated her with absolute respect, and she did the same to me. Even are arguments were discussins tah never got to yelling or insults.

I still can't believe how cold, mean, and rude she has become. I do not react when she does this to me, I remain calm, or I ignore her. She will not pull me into any arguments, but damn does it burn.


Me - 34 W - 34
T- 4
M- 2
No Kids
BD - 4/18/15 ILYBNILWY
EA/possible PA 06/20/15
Seperated 09/28/15