Hi Ghost, you wrote this and then negated it with....just, if we are getting along, shouldn't I build on it??
No - because that will keep you a) stuck and b) back-up plan. A little more alpha male is called for IMHO. Not being a jerk - but accepting that she wants to do this, and if she is you are making your own life. So, less being available to watch box sets and more not being around 'cause you played tennis then stayed on for a drink after etc...
Also, that whole worry cycle you posted is cheeseless tunnel territory. You are worrying about a whole pile of things you can't control.
Can you have a think about a new morning routing for you to stop this worry cycle, because this seems to be a tough time of day for you. Instead of lying there worrying, what nourishing early morning activities could you do to set you up for the day?? I'm going to give you some ideas:
Start a gratitude journal Yoga Meditate Read a chapter of a self-help book Keep a journal (a general one as well as gratitude...) Plan your next GAL activity
You are making progress I think - but you falter and drop back into worry and panic mode. If you can get a handle on this and stop panicking, you will move forward more steadily my friend.....good luck xx
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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
