I am feeling so low today. Maybe it's the rain, or my first vacation without him. I logged into our Amazon account and saw all of his orders for the past few months. He has been buying all of the things to set up his new home, which just reinforced for me that he is never coming back, and that he is happy with his new independence and new girlfriend.

It just keeps hitting me in waves that this man and I promised to spend our lives together, to support each other, and he just left. I think back to a few months ago when things started looking up, and I pushed him into telling me about the person he was involved with. Supposedly she was just someone random, now they're dating.

I need to GAL, but I'm frozen right now. I know I keep making excuses but I don't even know where to start. (I can't just call a friend, all are newly married/about to go into labor/out of the state)

Me: early 30s
Husband: early 30s
Married 3 years, together 6
No children

ILYBINILWY: 3/2015
He asks for divorce: 4/2015
Moves out for good: 5/2015
I start the divorce process 8/2015