Ghost, I am praying for you. I feel the same way that you do. But I also "get" that the rules have changed, our spouses want out. We cannot control that. It is heartbreaking. It will be for a long, long time. The thoughts you are having are normal. This is extremely hard. I have gone through some sh!t in my life, and this heartbreak has been by far the hardest thing for me. I get you, I really do. But you have to pull yourself together. Your options here are not about how to get your W back anymore, your options are- deal with this in a way that preserves your dignity and leaves you stronger, or crumble. Those are your options. And as a dad you know you don't really have a choice. Stop fighting this so much, and pull yourself together. I don't say that lightly. I say that with love and understanding. And I say it just as much to you as to remind myself because I am walking through this same thing with you Ghost. We all are.
