This is so not getting any easier I really do not know how my next few months are going to be I'm trying to find things to do with my time I'm trying to work and trying to spend time with my children I was trying to do tennis and I have very little interest at the moment

I am in denial as to the ar I know I am just do not know how to move forward I want to get things back with her

For the sake of the kids their future and mine everything is [censored] right now

Me:48 W 41
M:18 T:26
2 D 18 & 4
2 S 17 & 13
Bomb: 20/7/2015 in house separation
D filed 06/17
Separate houses 10/17
D Final 29/12//17.