Vanilla Again, thanks for taking the time to reach out. That is a lot of insight. I think the struggle for me is that I can't tell if this reaching out to me is a sign of change in our R, or cake-eating. Maybe it's both. What is tough is that when I do spend time with her, I want to pull my ears off I'm so upset. I like her very much, and she is being a totally different person than she used to. She's really kind, listens, doesn't judge me, and is easy on herself and me. She seems to genuinely want to be around me. To spend time with me. This has been pretty consistent. She even texted me that she was looking forward to seeing me tonight. So if I push her away now, do I just break any progress we might be making? I don't know. I did see her tonight and spent time with the kids. We had a nice time. I did not pull my ears off, but being there with her in that house, my kids happily playing around us, eating together. Everything was an echo of what could be. Then I get sick to my stomach when she used a word she got from OM. And it all floods in. It's not killing me. It's hard, really hard. I'm seeing positive changes, but maybe I'm just being led along. Like this is her reformatting our R into a friendship. Maybe she is waiting to see if her feelings will return. I don't know. Just have to man-up and detach from the outcome. I will continue to ponder what you said. Thanks V.
Mutatio I know you are right. That is basically what I'm doing. But I can't help but feel like I'm being taken advantage of. As of right now, I do feel a bit more empowered. I'm really focusing on GAL, finding my worth again. I hope you are finding some peace.
dday I'm sorry to hear that you are in that situation. It hurts like heck. I'm really working to continue to be a great dad. It's tough man. Trying to be strong for them while your heart is aching so. When you have so much anger and pain inside. But I'm moving through it. What sort of boundaries are you setting if I may ask? I'm not sure what to do in that regard.
M 16y , T 18y , 3 Kids 7/14 ILYBINILWY 8/14 Takes off rings 5/15 OM, S PA 8/15 10/15 A new hope. Rumbles of Reconciliation. 11/15 I can have what I want. What do I want?
