Update after a long time

[shodan]

Sotto, thanks for your kind words. I think my fear is that she will use this type of issue go the other direction and throw in the towel. But then again, if that is what she wants, I cannot stop that.

I am also mad at myself, not for getting on the sites but for letting her reaction to her friend telling her get to me. I am having the same feelings that I had when she was wayward. I got those under control by focusing on me and not her. But for the past few weeks, we have been focusing on us. She has been focusing on us. But I stop doing as much for myself, or at least mentally focusing on me. I need to stop worrying about what she thinks and just be the leader of this family. If she wants to come along for the ride, then she can make that decision.