It looks like it is a little hard for you to stay away from trying to mind-read. I know you can't help what you feel, but just try to remember that feelings change. If you cant stop yourself from wondering what W is thinking or what she might do, try and put a firm limit on it. Allow it for 5 minutes, but then force your attention on anything else.
When I struggle with this, I grab an pen and paper and dive into a short story. Sometimes I write about the H having an A and ending up with a crazy person and losing everything. Other times I write about the perfect H in a perfect M. My stories are horrid, I know this. Sometimes, they are about stupid things like hair styles or race cars. The point is, I force myself to think about ANYTHING else.
Writing may not be for you, but find something that you can do to take your mind far far away.
I'm so sorry for your pain.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
