Ok from what you wrote, it seems you're not very motivated to change. Sometimes men have to SEE the change physically to notice things. You have to have something to focus your energies on. You WORK on your goals.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.