WAH, in the thick of divorce (pt 3)

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I am in a much better place today. There are things I will never understand, mostly the 'why' and how he can't see that I could never meet his unvoiced expectations. Some things aren't meant to be understood, only accepted.

I accept our marriage is over. I want a new one, a better one.
I accept that he is broken.
I accept that I do not know what the future holds but it will be amazing
I accept that I am worth more than how he values me for
I accept that I do not know what he is thinking or feeling

I am going to try and start feeling some compassion for him but I am not quite sure I am there yet. I do forgive him for feeling like there was no hope and that he must have felt this was the only answer. I have not forgiven him for how he got there (alone) and how he handled everything after BD.

Thank you all for your continued support. I would not be where I am without you. Six months in is just around the corner and I already feel a lot stronger than I did 6 months ago.