Lonely Hearts Club

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Thank you so much for checking on me Rouky. It is so reassuring to know that I have a friend out there who really cares. I am doing better the last three days. I think the Prozac was making me very depressed. I cannot remember ever being so down as I was for a couple of weeks. I am continuing to take it however and I do think that I have turned a corner. I want so much to find peace in my situation but I am struggling to do that. I am doing a little better with detachment. It is all so shocking to see the person that I loved so much turn into a person whom I do not recognize. I wish that someone could explain to me how it happens that the person that I have known for sixteen years could totally re-write history and blame me for every problem in the marriage. Some time away from her has helped me more clearly see the history of relationship. I think that will happen for her as well at some point.

No movement on the D front as I am still gathering financial information and waiting on W to do so. I have done a better job with setting boundries and am seeing some positive results from that.

Had a great weekend with S13 and took him to a shooting range. It was so fun to see him be successful and his self esteem soar. Also got to expose him to the fantastic people that are around those ranges. Those guys and ladies have been such a source of strength during the last year.

My biggest current struggle is in keeping up with my housework. I was so efficient during my marriage but have really let things go around the house. I think that I need to do some planning to get myself back on track. Would appreciated any advice in that regard.

Had a great weekend with GAL activities but I need to make that a regular thing and hopefully my depression will be better and I will get out there. Still working out and doing yoga and running. Not quite up to the 5k that has been my goal for nine months.

As for my health I feel pretty good and my ability to taste sweet that had been missing for so long is now showing signs of returning. I think being able to have a little ice cream will help me to gain some weight!

Love hearing from you Rouky and I hope that some others who read this will chime in. Just can't have too many friends these days. I love you all, God Bless!