Where to begin?

[Dawgs]

Hi guys. Sorry for all of the posts that seem out of left field. Just having a very rough time today. My emotions are getting the best of me again.

Can I ask ya'll a question? What length of time constitutes an emotional affair? What about ex-boyfriends (who live several hundred miles away) who give her emotional support without the spouse knowing?

I am still angry about the whole wanting to go out of town thing over spending time with the children on her birthday. Maybe I shouldn't be, but the fact that she is getting ready to move doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me. Also, her not wanting us to move with her (financial, educational reason) doesn't really fly. Wouldn't a mother who supposedly loved her kids more than anything want them to be there? I just don't understand how she could see this as beneficial to them. I wonder if her mental mindset is playing a part in this. Someone suggested that she may not really want the kids, but I can't believe that. I am just so confused and lost.

And then there is the whole issue of D. I still cannot find or come up with a valid reason for D. The only thing that I can think of is a combination of her past, work pressures,and the fact that the SIL is also getting a D. Sure, we have had problems, but none worthy of D.

Why am I the bad guy? In other words, why do I get blamed for everything? For example, just yesterday she pulled the card of "well, for 7 years you didn't..." when referring to cleaning up. I told her please don't do that. But the devil got into me and when I was doing the dishes, I told her to sit down and I have it...she said "No, I can do it" to then I said, well you deserve it as for the past 7 years I didn't. She then said "I like you flipped that back on me..." WTF?????

Since I read into everything, someone please help me decipher her statement of "the relationship part of us is on a break." I cannot make sense of that statement.

Thank all of you for putting up with ramblings! Today just isnt a good day at all.