Not a whole lot for today. I just feel i ned to get some of my emotions and feelings out here. I know i needed to stand up for myself as i did for my own well being. I am questioning that I may have gone too far. It feels wrong when for so long i would do anything to make W happy.
I am still trying to look at her and her actions lately and see why i still believe i would want to be with her. If i stand outside and look in i would be telling me to be gone. It isnt so easy though. I think about the kids and I also think about what the bible tells me to do. It is to stand and be kind and lover her unconditionally.
this is the part that is messing with me. I am telling myself that i am only doing these things because i am standing for my marriage and i am doing the right thing to try and save it. then i think back and say I cant save this, it has to be her or god.

confusing times.

M 37
W 34

T 12
M 8
D 7
S 4

Need break 4/12/15
W no ring 7/7/15

Separate room 4/12/15
Separate living suggested 8/15
W moved out 11/1/15