A new M--a new me, a new him!

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I'm glad you returned to post an update. I'm sorry that things haven't been the best for you and that the anger is just now starting to bubble forth. You've bottled up your anger for a very long time and now it's got to come out. You are angry because of the way he treated you and your family during his crisis. You are angry that he's still connected to the MLC crowd and doing things w/them. You are angry that he's still acting out and behaving like a teenager (at times) and I think you are somewhat angry that he didn't revert back to the old h completely. rH, he may never be the man you knew and loved pre-crisis. If he's completely thru his crisis, then it sounds like he's kept some of the behaviors/quirks from his crisis.

I want to pose a question to you and I want you to think about it before you answer it, okay? Are you sure he's out of crisis? The things he's doing and the MLC crowd that he's hanging with gives me the impression that he's still got one foot in the crisis pond and one foot in the real world. Generally, when they complete their crisis, they do not stay connected with the people that they hung around with during that time.

Your expectations have been high and he's not met them for you. Try to dial down those expectations because he's still acting out like a teenager. You are now dealing w/the emotional fallout of his crisis and it's going to take you some time to feel like yourself again. It sounds like your MC doesn't have a clue how MLC affects the marriage and the LBS. You may want to consider switching from the MC and going to IC instead, but that's my opinion.

As for your professional life, only you can determine just how much you can handle right now. The people you work w/are seeing only the $$$ signs and want you to continue raking in the cash. If you want to dial down on the sales, then dial down because you know how you feel.

Please take care of yourself.