Ok I have a problem. Every time I have to see Ex I instantly become short toned can not make eye contact with him and lose all PMA. Its almost like I just want him to get away from me. I do not want to feel this way. I want to PMA be able to have light conversation and be up beat. Why does his presence make me feel this way? What are some ways I can change this behavior? I am worried this will even put a wedge between continuing a friendship?
Other things I have questions about is how do I handle this situation. Currently I am not handling anything. I am answering his texts allowing him to watch D8 every chance he can ect. I feel these actions are only again helping him maintain what he is doing. To him there is no fighting he does not have to see me or answer me if he does not want to. He can text me and demand I call him or text him back but it is ok for him to ignore me if OW is around or he does not want to answer. I also feel allowing him to have my daughter frequently is only making him feel like everything is fine. I would like him to be actively involved with her as I also want to continue being involved with his kids but I do not want to make this all seem ok for him and for him to think it will all be fine. I would like him to see what he will be missing and to think about his choices. I spend many days/hours thinking about my choices. My choice to leave, to not seek help earlier, to stay ect. I guess I need guidance on what to do next. I left now what?
